March 12, 2013

This is the day I decided, no more dating or should I say no more sex for at least one year…¬†GASP!

I have had my fill of questioning potential mates for sexual history, it really does take the fun out of random sex. Those were the days, oh who am I kidding, they were never the days and frankly they aren’t now. The norm seems to be 3-5 dates at this age and you are expected to put out. Is that long enough to frankly get intimate and discuss HSV, HIV or HPV. Why do they all start with H, how did that letter of the alphabet get the award for crappy STD’s? Sure there are condoms, but really would you sleep with someone knowing they had HIV?

Ask me that, right now, after just sitting in Public Health waiting my turn for the needle poke and looking gratefully at only one little dot in the 10 min HIV test. I wasn’t exposed, I just ended a relationship and before the next one, I want the credentials up front. But this time, I decided I am done….for awhile.

So I got my blue dot and my clean bill of health and a lesson in discovering maybe that after all this time, I need to concentrate on me. I need to realize that I am OKAY, just the way I am.